Vengeance is Mine saith the Lord!
I just recently discovered that the "Pastor" who had asked me to leave "his" church because I was an ordained female minister, was also asked to leave that same church for loosing his temper. I also discovered not too long ago that another "Pastor" who had asked me to leave her church had to close the doors on her church. She had asked me to leave for "nagging" my husband, when I had in fact simply stated to him, "I know you don't want to hear this right now, but I love you." If we were all asked to leave for serving the Lord and telling people we love them, there would be no more churches. Another incident that took place many years ago was also vindicated by God. A neighbor who had made false allegations which were totally unfounded about myself and several other neighbors has found herself in a Mexican prison for attempting to kidnap two Mexican children after having lost her own two children.
Through all of these incidents, though hurt and very heartbroken, I learned to pray for my enemies to come to repentance before the Lord, and I have seen God take vengeance on my enemies on my behalf. King David once said in the Psalms, "I know I am doing your will, because you have not let my enemies triumph over me." Now that triumph is not always immediate, as I have had to wait years to see it, much like Joseph did when his brothers sold him as a slave to Egypt. And like Joseph, I don't wish evil on anyone who comes against me, and have never attempted to "get back" at my enemies for the harm to my reputation and even my physical body. I have prayed for all of them to come to repentance and for God to do in their lives whatever it takes for that to happen. And then I have waited on the Lord for the results. I have found, though, that God's strong hand of vengeance is mightier than my hand ever could have been. And I trust that God will work all things out for my good because I love the Lord and have been called according to His purpose (Romans 8:28).
I do have those who are coming against me now because I choose to stand up for righteousness and for what I believe is Biblical truth. I pray for their repentance as well and I trust God to work everything out for good. Please pray with me that I, after having done everything I can, will be able to stand in the face of my giants. I have been threatened with the loss of mine and my children's mobile home, which has been bought and paid for, told I was "crazy" by my own family, because I refused to go to a funeral with a known pedophile, and put in lock down for three days to get me out of the way while they did their evil deeds. But as their accusations were based on untrue exaggerations I could not be held any longer than the three days.
Now I Cor. 5 clearly tells us we are not to associate with people who call themselves "Christian" and yet continually behave in sexually immoral and other sinful ways. It states we are not even to eat with people like this.
While I was there in lock down, God mercifully surrounded me with godly ladies and gentlemen who prayed with me for my vindication and supported me with loving hands and open hearts. I spent those three days studying scripture (I was allowed to keep my Bible, Praise Yahweh God, Psalm 37-41 was particularly helpful ), praising the Lord in song, and praying. It was a much needed rest from the troubles of this world. In the end the doctors I saw indicated that the only thing wrong with me was that I was standing up to my dysfunctional family and they didn't like it, and that I might seek "grief counseling" for the way I lost my father.
In their attempts to destroy my reputation, they also would have kept me from finishing my Master's degree in Christian Counseling, which I have struggled through ten years of school to obtain. But God did not allow their evil plans to succeed. God has a plan for my life and those who would try to thwart it are only getting in God's way, and I for one would never want to be in that place! I pray I never do stand in the way of God's will for someone else's life.
Now I'm not saying I don't have problems and am perfect -- far from it. I do have a temper at times, especially when someone violates my personal boundaries of life and faith. I have many other faults that God is still working on and will continue to work on until I get to the other side of heaven. But in spite of all my many faults, I, like Paul the apostle, hope to be useful in God's kingdom, even if I am a woman. I have found that God uses women in at least two circumstances through my study of scripture, when a man can't do the job, or when a man refuses to do the job God called him to. I believe I have been called to minister to victims of sexual and domestic violence, and that is something a man clearly cannot do. My ordination is between me and My God. So I pray that all of these trials I am going through will work out for the good of everyone concerned and I will wait on the Lord , my Savior and my God, to vindicate me of the evils I have been falsely accused of.
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